I am saddened my lil' brod,...because you end up your journey here...sorry if I wasn't did my dreams for you...for it was late now,..but I know that you knew everything I did is all about us,...for I know that you are my responsibilities in life....I am so wrong now for thinking that we're be together for so long...I believe in the power of our GOD,...I know that HE is taking away when hE has something better to give,...I love you so....for it was the words that you even can't heard from me...but deep in my heart you are there more than any one else...sorry for everything....sorry for your beloved family...I will missed you, for now it was the words I know,...go on now in your journey to heaven...loving you more....
-margaret
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6F7tuUyJuNg&feature=colike
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
My Dream to be a VA
I always wanted to do some things to fulfilled my imaginations and expectation, likewise, I always want to explore my ability to the limit of my capability. And I think being a VA is one of the great fulfilling job. That's why I really want to be a VA just to express my skills and interest in this new generation. I found now myself in this opportunity. God less!!..
-margelo05
-margelo05
Sunday, October 16, 2011
AND THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU
After how many long months of our relationship, we always end up in misunderstanding. Ewan ko ba, basta ang alam ko minsan, sinasadya kong magtampo tampuhan sayo para lambingin mo ako, pero mali,. isang malaking mali! Siguro dahil masyado akong naniniwala na mahal mo talaga ako. I've been always make things na alam kong pag aawayan naten in the reason na gusto kong mapansin mo ako kahit paano. hindi lang kapag may kailangan ka, kundi sana kahit sa maliit na paraan. Before actually were become together, I don't believe in "love" because I knew that no man can't even love the person like me, even in the best things come. But do believe that loving me is worst things in life. Kakatawa kasi kahit alam ko nang walang pwedeng magmahal saken, still I tried. Noong una, sabe ko sa sarili that I will never fall in love to any one else, kaya lahat ng matipuhan ko tinitikman ko lang without emotions involved kahit minsan madalas na nauulit yung ginagawa ko for that one particular person. Still, I am not longing for someone to be with me forever, for I know that nothing in this world is forever.But I am wrong, I definitely wrong. Until you come to my life. At first, I told myself that I'm going to get you fall in me and try you to change, then after that, I will get you out in my life. But I got my biggest mistake to get you in into my life. Kahit alam kong yun talaga ang forte mo, at kahit na may pagkakapereho tayo ng style sinubukan ko paring kunin ka. I dare myself to you sabe ko pa nga I just going to use you as the subject of my story. Without knowing na mas magaling ka palang may play ng role kesa saken. I was very wrong to think this to you, for I was knew na experyensado ka na pala in this industry. Nung una feeling ko I know na I won, kasi naging tayo at naramdaman kong you're falling in me. Kaya medyo nakampanti na ako without asking myself until when is this? were in now in our 9 months of relationship. Masaya na masakit kasi nahulog na ako sayo, sobrang namahal nakita. Then its come to me I just change, I simply suddenly change. I come to the point na sobrang nag eexpect na ako sayo. I just told to myself na akin ka na. I was easy become obsess to you that I come to the point na madalas napa-paranoid na ako, naghihinala na ako sa lahat, sa lahat lahat ng ginagawa mo, nakakasama mo until I came na gusto ko binabantayan na kita, na gusto ko I know everything you do, na kung sino kasama mo, anong ginagawa mo, at kung nasaan ka. I just called myself OA for this things to you, I think I become crazy to you. Hanggang sa umaabot na tayo ng madalas nating pag aaway, I just realize na unti-unti na akong nagiging selfish, unti-unti na akong nagbabago, nawawala na ako sa unang purpose ko kung bakit pumasok ako sa relasyon naten. Natatakot na akong iwan mo, kaya sobrang OA na ako pagdating sayo. Sobra na kitang mahal kaya ayaw ko ng mawala ka, maagaw ng iba. kahit alam kong I just least in your priorities. Nakalimutan kong sumingit lang ako sa inyo. Nakalimutan kong may iba ka ng pumasok ako sa buhay mo. Kaya sobra akong nagseselos at nasasaktan kapag nababalitaan kong magkasama kayo, lalo na kapag sinasabe mong una siyang naging iyo bago ako, sobrang sakit kasi after all, pagkatapos kong subukan gawin lahat ng ginagawa nya sayo, binibigay, wala pa rin pala, tagos tagusan yung sakit na yun,.But I need to be strong for that, kasi yun siguro yung consequence ko ng pag agaw ko sayo sa kanya. At this point of my life, I just said to myself, talo na ako, gusto na nga isip ko na sumuko, pero ayaw na ayw pa ng puso ko. This is now the battle begins, kung sino ba ang susundin ko, ang isip ko na nagsasabing kalimutan na kita o ang puso ko na nagsasabing diko kyang iwan ka? This is where our war start. I fight for the reason na mahal kita, kahit alam kong gustong gusto mo na ako iwan. I fight coz I have this feelings for you, kahit alam kong hindi mo na ako mahal. Hirap, as in hirap. Now i know, ganito pala ang mainlove, ang magmahal. You will going to do the very best you can do para lang sa taong minamahal mo. Kahit yung pinaka worst magagawa mo dahil lang sa pagmamahal. Kahit hindi mo kayang gawin, kahit ayaw mong gawin, kahit hirap kang gawin lahat magagawa mo pagdating sa love. And I did it all for you.Now, at this very night of our talk. I would say na ako ang mali for all of this. I realized that I totally change because of my love for you. May part na negative pero atleast meron ding positive for this. I learned a lot. I learned most of the things na hindi ko natutunan or hindi kayang ituo ng kahit sino man. I know myself, my real inside me. And this is because of you, you actually become one of my mentor for this worst part of life. I thank you for all, for everything, for this very learned experience. This is actually one the best to add in my very memorable experience. I thank you for this, for the love you gave to me, for pain you brought in me, for all the feelings we've shared. Now, I will never close my heart for you, for its your love is here. We maybe rest, but in time of everything for us,..at least alam natin lahat, alam na natin kung paano ihandle yung isa't isa. For that time, I wish that we both good in life, good in all good in everything and most of all were good together...I LOVE YOU so much...for this is the words I can only say to you...I LOVE YOU and Thanks for Your LOVE....
-margelo05
Friday, October 14, 2011
IMORTAL STORY (Gay Version)
Chapeter One : Balon (Gay @ the Grudge)
Place : Toilet / Battle Field
Match: Joel vs. Buboy
Story:
Isang madilim na gabi at umuulan ng biglang natae si Joel na lango sa alak at walang anu-ano’t napadpad sa bahay nila Buboy. Biglang bigla si Buboy sa napakabilis na eksena. Dali dali niyang sinampal si Joel at sinipa sa mukha. Tila nawala naman ang amats ni Joel kaya’t agad itong gumanti. Sinipa rin niya si Buboy sa tiyan at sinbunutan. Dahil sa ingay na dulot ng paglalaban nila, agad na dumating si ...
tobe continue...antok nako...ehehe..
-margelo05
Done and Gone
Hurting, they say is a confirmation of love. I was truly hurt. Simply then, because I truly loved… and this is what I should be proud of. I have nothing to regret about. I have no if’s and but’s now. I know I did everything, even the impossible. I created reality out of fantasies. I moved mountains and crossed deepest seas, just to prove not to anyone but to myself, that I know what and how love is. It has been a tough take, it wounded me… it shattered… it was so hard. Yet, I know it all didn’t go to nothing. I have learned a lot. I am stronger. I am better.
Really, when you love, you are all willing to do all that you can… even the things unworkable become possible. That’s the power of love. We never can explicate how far it can make someone go. It is just so sad, that there are people who really don’t know how to value the love being shared. There are some that can just dump it all out, regardless of the pain they may cause others. Those people are who we call immature. Inconsiderate. They may have reasons why they do such things but then again, how they do things is never the way it should be.
I actually don’t want to talk anymore about love and life. My life became so wide-open book to all. And sometimes, it just comes to me that maybe it is better if I keep it myself and stop. However, I know, that through this effort, I can bestow learning. Moreover, I can also say things I was not given a chance to say. And so now I speak…
You know I never will regret that we met. I still keep my words I said before, that you are a gift sent to me from above. You made me learn several things. You made me happy. You became my companion. You were a friend. And all of the good memories we had is what I keep in my heart. I still am thankful that despite what we’ve been through we are still good. And now, better individuals. This is what I appreciate in all of this. It all ended not leaving us empty, but full of new learnings we know we can bring in the next chapters we are to enter. You still are a friend to me. And I hope I am to you, too.
I’ve been so vocal about how I was so pissed by what you did. And now I still would want to be vocal… that I am over it. Anger doesn’t helped me in anyway. I have all my means to be in revenge and cause hurting in ways I know how. But then again, at the end of it, who's going to be happy? No one. World overflows with hatred already, I would not want to be an addition. I was hurt. And another hurting would never give me cure.
I forgave. And though now, I should be honest that it is still fresh in my memories. But soon, I wish, I’ll learn to forget it, too… and just keep in me the lesson it left. I am no longer mad. I have nothing to be bitter about. I benefited a lot from this experience, and that alone is another wonderful gift I can equip myself for my next adventures waiting.
Now, we both may be bound to our separate own paths. We may bump into each other along the way. We may not. We may take lives without each other as part of it any longer. But what’s important is, we know we are okay. We know we still are friends. Let’s try to forget about the bad times… it helped us become stronger though. Let’s keep in us the good times. And so everytime we remember, we remember love and not hatred. It may take time for us to accept the whole thing. It will be a long tough process. But soon we’ll see that we fully moved on. And that’s what I pray for now.
I was mad. And again, I tell you its done. That feeling is now gone. I don’t want us to leave with hurt. I want us end good, as what I always asked from you. I wish this time you take this simple request, it’s for the good of both of us. You’ll see in time why.
Just a piece of advice… you never can put into your hand all the people you meet. May it be acquaintances, friends, or even partners. Like you needing to be understood, they too need to be understood. And as how you want to know every bit of them, they too need to know you. We cannot keep ourselves in secret all the time. We may have personal reasons why we do such things. But tying it all together, it is still easy to breathe deep if nothing’s keeping you out.
Learn to trust. And so you can be trusted, too. I do not want to sound like as if you are the only one who did wrong. I myself had shortcomings, too. But proudly I can say, and I know you know it, that I have done all that I can. Maybe, you’re just not ready for this yet. And for the last time, I understand. Hope you be happy… that’s what I always call upon. And you can sure be, if you’ll learn to be true even just to yourself first. I wish you good.
We’ll still see each other in place and time we don’t know. And when that time came, I wish we can face each other strong enough, mature enough, learned enough. And from there, may we be able to build better friendship.
All is finally done. It’s all now gone. But I’ll never get tired of loving. It’s the nicest thing! (",)
Really, when you love, you are all willing to do all that you can… even the things unworkable become possible. That’s the power of love. We never can explicate how far it can make someone go. It is just so sad, that there are people who really don’t know how to value the love being shared. There are some that can just dump it all out, regardless of the pain they may cause others. Those people are who we call immature. Inconsiderate. They may have reasons why they do such things but then again, how they do things is never the way it should be.
I actually don’t want to talk anymore about love and life. My life became so wide-open book to all. And sometimes, it just comes to me that maybe it is better if I keep it myself and stop. However, I know, that through this effort, I can bestow learning. Moreover, I can also say things I was not given a chance to say. And so now I speak…
You know I never will regret that we met. I still keep my words I said before, that you are a gift sent to me from above. You made me learn several things. You made me happy. You became my companion. You were a friend. And all of the good memories we had is what I keep in my heart. I still am thankful that despite what we’ve been through we are still good. And now, better individuals. This is what I appreciate in all of this. It all ended not leaving us empty, but full of new learnings we know we can bring in the next chapters we are to enter. You still are a friend to me. And I hope I am to you, too.
I’ve been so vocal about how I was so pissed by what you did. And now I still would want to be vocal… that I am over it. Anger doesn’t helped me in anyway. I have all my means to be in revenge and cause hurting in ways I know how. But then again, at the end of it, who's going to be happy? No one. World overflows with hatred already, I would not want to be an addition. I was hurt. And another hurting would never give me cure.
I forgave. And though now, I should be honest that it is still fresh in my memories. But soon, I wish, I’ll learn to forget it, too… and just keep in me the lesson it left. I am no longer mad. I have nothing to be bitter about. I benefited a lot from this experience, and that alone is another wonderful gift I can equip myself for my next adventures waiting.
Now, we both may be bound to our separate own paths. We may bump into each other along the way. We may not. We may take lives without each other as part of it any longer. But what’s important is, we know we are okay. We know we still are friends. Let’s try to forget about the bad times… it helped us become stronger though. Let’s keep in us the good times. And so everytime we remember, we remember love and not hatred. It may take time for us to accept the whole thing. It will be a long tough process. But soon we’ll see that we fully moved on. And that’s what I pray for now.
I was mad. And again, I tell you its done. That feeling is now gone. I don’t want us to leave with hurt. I want us end good, as what I always asked from you. I wish this time you take this simple request, it’s for the good of both of us. You’ll see in time why.
Just a piece of advice… you never can put into your hand all the people you meet. May it be acquaintances, friends, or even partners. Like you needing to be understood, they too need to be understood. And as how you want to know every bit of them, they too need to know you. We cannot keep ourselves in secret all the time. We may have personal reasons why we do such things. But tying it all together, it is still easy to breathe deep if nothing’s keeping you out.
Learn to trust. And so you can be trusted, too. I do not want to sound like as if you are the only one who did wrong. I myself had shortcomings, too. But proudly I can say, and I know you know it, that I have done all that I can. Maybe, you’re just not ready for this yet. And for the last time, I understand. Hope you be happy… that’s what I always call upon. And you can sure be, if you’ll learn to be true even just to yourself first. I wish you good.
We’ll still see each other in place and time we don’t know. And when that time came, I wish we can face each other strong enough, mature enough, learned enough. And from there, may we be able to build better friendship.
All is finally done. It’s all now gone. But I’ll never get tired of loving. It’s the nicest thing! (",)
-margelo05
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